Friday, December 16, 2005

Swim Deeper

Let me give you a word picture based on a dream that I had this morning. Imagine yourself at an idyllic cottage area just after noon on a calm and bright summer day. There's just enough of a breeze to cool you down but not enough to make you cold if you're in the water. There's a small lake with a few people swimming or boating. You have swum out from the shore to a small floating platform, the small square kind made of wood with a simple ladder up the side. It's the kind of platform that tires you out when you swim to it but it's fun to dive from it or sunbathe a while and then eventually swim back to shore.

God was telling me, "Don't swim further, swim deeper."

In our lives, we gradually discover our main calling. The purpose or focus to which we love to devote ourselves, that inspires us and keeps us going. For me, my two main areas are worship and discipleship, possibly in that order. For others, it may be teaching or pastoring or being a parent.

Once we have found our calling, our lake, we are not meant to move to other lakes. There may be other lakes nearby or other rivers. These lakes and rivers may be very pleasant and attractive themselves. Other people may be there already or people may move from your lake to the other ones. Even so, we're to stay in the lake that we found.

The purpose of this instruction is not to hinder us from moving. The purpose is not to limit us, to put borders around us or to stop us from learning. Instead, the purpose is that we fully explore this lake that we have found.

We can walk along the shoreline of the lake We can explore by boat. We can swim around along the surface, maybe even shallow dive off a platform. We can enjoy our time with others as we do these things. We can even just stop and sunbathe. That may be great at first and it may be great at different times when we need a break.

We should not be satisified with swimming around the surface, though. We need to swim deeper. We need to swim down past the depths that others swim. We need to go down by ourselves into the soundless areas below, finding the secrets that others cannot find. In these places, looking up at the surface, it's just between us and God. He'll show us what we're looking for.

And once we have found these secrets, these treasures, we can swim up and bring them back to the surface. We can bring the pearls that God has shown to us and give them to others. For me in particular, this means deepening in worship and bringing back songs that everyone can share. (Once in a while, there may be a pearl of great value that I won't want to share with anyone.)

Don't swim further, swim deeper.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Humility & Humiliation

I wrote about humility this past week and now it's time to write about humiliation. Last night was opening night for our Christmas presentation at my church. I have a solo and it went flawlessly. Tonight, not so much.

My solo is for the song O Little Town of Bethlehem, which we all know so well. I have the first verse to myself, so let's see how it goes...

O little town of Bethlehem
How still we see thee lie
Above thy deep and dreamless sleep
The silent stars go by
Yet in...la lananana
The everlasting light
The hopes and fears of all the years
Are met in thee tonight

Yep, that's how it goes. *sigh*

Thursday, December 8, 2005

Caution: Humility At Work

This past weekend, there was a high priority problem at my workplace. I had dealt with it initially on Friday morning but I decided that we could wait to fix the software bug until the following Monday. Unfortunately, a customer contacted us over the weekend and one of our other programmers had to come in on Saturday to fix the issue. Several people received an e-mail this past Monday explaining what had happened and suggesting that this should have been corrected on the previous Friday.

As the project manager, I had made the call to delay the fix. So, I sucked it up and sent an e-mail back to everyone, apologizing for my decision and apologizing for the fact that another developer had to waste part of their weekend on the problem.

One person wrote me back in a bit of amazement, saying that they had never heard anybody apologize at anyplace they had ever worked.

The way I see it, an apology is my first course of action once I have been shown that I was wrong. Granted, everyone expects an apology if they themselves were wronged. We'll have arguments with someone about how they hurt us or whatever and at some point we'll gleefully add the comment, "And you haven't even said that you're sorry."

On the other side of that coin, though, it takes a fair amount of pride-swallowing to easily offer a meaningful and sincere apology. It can be difficult to counteract the automatic desire to defend ourselves. The only thing that makes it easier is to practice, I suppose. In any case, I find it amusing that certain marks of maturity are so often missing from our workplaces but I'm glad that God showed up in that simple e-mail exchange.

Monday, December 5, 2005

Earthly Treasures

I ordered my new sound equipment for my laptop a week and a half ago through eBay and two of my packages arrived today. I received Sonar Home Studio 4 and M-Audio Mobilepre USB. I also ordered two new Rode NT1A mics, which will be arriving next week.

I'm planning to use the new equipment to record several different sets of songs. My first priority is to prepare a short worship CD for Christmas, for my parents and my co-workers. I did that two years ago and it really worked out well. After that, I want to record a few other songs that I've been writing. I also want to record a complete worship CD with Arial and perhaps a french worship song or two for ma grandmama. Here I go...

As for other material goods, I told a few of my friends that I would prepare a proper Christmas wish list and I've finally gotten around to doing that. If'n you weren't one of those people then by all means, ignore the rest of this post.

1) Simpsons Hit & Run for the PS2 (link)
2) Foxtrot (link) Note: I already have most of the other treasury-sized collections.
3) Any recent worship CD - I haven't bought any in the past year.
4) Wizard subscription (link)
5) Blank CDs (Heh.)
6) Clothing, since I rarely buy anything for myself.
7) MP3 Player
8) Family Guy Season 3, Simpsons Season 4 and 5, Futurama Season 2
9) Alarm clock with ten-minute snooze button, battery/plug options, small enough for trips.
10) Somethin' else. Be creative, thoughtful or cheap, whatever you prefer.

Saturday, December 3, 2005

Last Week & Next Week

This past week was pretty brutal. Christmas choir practice was fine, hanging with my Little is always fun and I even got together with E* for an impromptu lunch. Even so, my entire week was overshadowed by one major event at work.

My best "work friend" resigned this past week, completely out of the blue. He's moving on to a better job that will definitely work out nicely for him. For me, though, it was like an emotional sucker punch. I've worked quite closely with him for more than three and a half years. We bounce ideas off of each other as we develop our code and we tend to think alike regarding our approaches to software design. More than that, I always played him two games of chess every day at work and we have even hung out a few times outside of work.

I've had this black cloud about me ever since I found out about it, which is uncharacteristic of me. I was actually a little surprised at how deeply this effected me but as I said, I'm sure things will themselves out. Good times we had, good times.

My focus for the upcoming week is my Christmas production at my church. I've been practising with my Christmas choir since early October and pay off is coming next weekend. We have six days for everyone to come and see our free presentation. It falls on Saturday-Sunday-Monday on December 10/11/12 and December 17/18/19, at 7:00 pm every night.

The play was written from scratch and directed by one of our church members and the music was arranged and recorded by our worship leader. I've seen the early versions of the whole production and it's pretty funny. It relates to the story of Mary and Joseph but this year it's told from the point of view of the shephards. Aaron and Derrick Ross play two central roles as shephards and since they're brothers in real life, their bickering and relationship comes off as both hilarious and believable. (Plus, Tara is in it!) I'm sure everyone will enjoy it.

As for me, I do have a solo for one of the songs. On the whole, the songs fit quite nicely into the play and a couple of them will have a nice emotional impact. I hope y'all decide to take one night to come out and enjoy yourselves.